Hello again

There is going to be some updating done to this blog in the near future

I'll be cleaning it up a little, probably changing the background, and POSTING MORE!!!


              But for now update on life.....

I see I haven't posted since last January! (YIKES)   Much has gone on this last year. My baby boy turned one in Nov. which was such a fun birthday.  We took a couple trips last summer for Jeremy to preach at VBS and meetings.

We got to spend a lot of time last year together as a family. Oh yeah haha Jeremy was also ordained as a pastor last year so he is officially Pastor Jeremy :)

Baby updates: I know our track record is when your babies turn one we get pregnant with the next, BUT my pregnancy with Liam was, well......heavy? tiring? painful?  I mean come on he was 11 pounds at birth! I had many many hip problems through out those months and could hardly walk or sit by the end without being in much pain :(

 So I told my husband, for my health, I needed to lose a great deal of weight before getting pregnant again. I am getting older and I want a happy pregnancy not a painful one. I can't be pushing 230 pounds by the end of the next preg. my body can't handle being that big. And I grow BIG babies <3 p="p">
I lost 13lbs but over Christmas gained most of that back :( but I am happy to say I have lost 6lbs since Christmas so I'm off to a good start.

My goal is to be at a healthy weight by the end of February so I can get pregnant in March.

We are very excited for 2013, we are hoping to have big changes in our family this year, and can't wait to see what God brings our way.

Creepy?

We went to Pizza Hut yesterday after church with my parents and some friends. We were all just eating and chatting and a song came on. I noticed right away the song was one that was very popular when I was in high-school.  I don't know the name of the song or even who sang it. I didn't listen to that music in school, but oddly enough I knew EVERY word.

Today I had the song stuck in my head and can't stop humming it. It's kind of disturbing how, with out me noticing, that song has been burned into my memory ( with so many others) and 10 years later I still know all the words.

Lyrics haven't gotten any more appropriate and yet you walk into any store or restaurant and that music is playing. Your mind is memorizing it with out you even noticing. What songs are MY children going to learn? I'm sure ones I don't approve of.

It's sad really.

It's raining, it's pouring...

I'm NEVER letting my kids go around other kids again!!!

Okay, Okay, I know that I can't keep my kids away from friends. I am just very tired right now.

Last week we had VBS and Sophia absolutely loved every minute of it. She came home singing new songs, and asking me to sing her new songs, that unfortunately I don't know the words to (but I will find out the words). 
In the morning during the young kids VBS Olivia and I stayed home and watched Erika's two youngest children so that she could help at church. Oh we loved having Hadassah, and John over to play!

During the day and evenings my mom watched my children because Jeremy runs the youth group and we had activities for them too!! Here is a short list of crazy things I did last week.

Hiked Sugarloaf mountain
Hiked Hogsback Mountain (in the rain)
Played big ball volleyball
Stayed up past midnight every night! lol
Caught a nasty cold,

Hey that's a lot for a 25weeks pregnant lady. But back to my kids.....

VBS was over and the mission group that came to help had left.  Sunday morning I noticed my girls had weird blisters on their feet and hands. We took them in and they both had hand, foot and mouth virus, and bad! It had actually started forming on their bottoms too. So I have two little ladies with break outs on their hands, feet, mouths, and bottoms :(

Olivia (as usual) got the cold I have right away, and today Sophia woke up with it. And to top things off.....Olivia might have ringworm...uuggghhh I feel bad for my poor husband who gets up early for work. He isn't sleeping well because we are all coughing all night. But I am grateful for how he takes care of us when he gets home and is super exhausted.

I'm glad this week has been a little cooler and rainy because I would be very bummed if it was nice out and we had to stay indoors. My dishes and laundry and piling up but that's okay, there is plenty of time for that later.
 Hopefully by the end of this week we will all be healthy again.

It's been a while....and my belly is starting to get big! People keep asking if I'm sure it isn't twins...YES I'm sure it's NOT twins. But we did find out we are having a boy, YAY!!! He was weighing big at 20 weeks, which is normal for my pregnancies. Sophia was 9 and half lbs. and Olivia was almost 9 lbs. So yes this is probably going to be one big boy!!

Jeremy is very excited to be having a son. He isn't going to know what to do with a boy around though lol. He is such a good daddy to our girls, I don't know how many people have said how wonderful of a dad he is to his girls, but it has been a lot!

I'm trying to not buy too much new stuff (which is hard) but I have been trying to buy second hand. I'm selling a bunch of stuff I have that is just cluttering our house so that I can buy some boy stuff.

We are still stuck on names for this lil boy :)

DEER!!!

Yesterday I took the kids to Presque Isle even though it was raining. Sophia sang, Rain Rain go away, the whole way there and it worked!! It stopped raining when we got there and didn't start again until we were done walking around the island. We were in search of deer and the first half of the walk we didn't see any. I was pretty sure we wouldn't either since the city took most of the deer out of there. But as we were walking Sophia started yelling, "mom deer, mom deer!" I said, "no hun there aren't any deer." Then of course I looked over and BAM four deer were standing right next to us! I could almost touch one. We kept trying to get it to come closer but it just stood there, even Olivia was calling to it. That really made the girl's day seeing those deer lol kids are so funny.

pregnancy blues

When I was pregnant with Sophia and Olivia I never cried about how I looked or that I was gaining weight. I was just so proud to be pregnant and loved everything good and bad that came with it.

This pregnancy is different...

I cry every time I go to get dressed and can't find anything to wear (I'm in the weird size stage) My maternity is too big and normal stuff too small. I cry when I look in the mirror and see the stringy hair and pale face, and the double chin that is already starting to show it's ugly self.

I don't think it helps that people keep making comments either. WOW you're showing? or is that just chub? Well yes at 13 and a half weeks I am showing and alot!! My baby is already measuring big (they all did) I can't help that I give birth to 6 month olds!!! haha yes they are pretty big babies at birth.

It's not even the bump that makes me cry....I LOVE my bump! It's the huge love handles that are just flapping over my pants :(  I swear they have tripled in size since I got preggo!
The other day Jeremy says,"hun you're not fat, you're having a baby." I replied, "the baby isn't growing out of my sides!"
 I didn't look so flabby with my other two children and even after, my body seemed to bounce back pretty fast.

This has been a very weepy pregnancy. I cry over...
food

clothes

my children

thinking about the girl's birth

my hair

my pale skin

if Jeremy seems annoyed or unhappy in any little way

just about everything!!!

I really can't wait until I get to the stage, that's my favorite!!

what an honor!

On Mother's day a man in our church asked if he could speak with Jeremy and I. I wasn't very sure what he wanted to talk about, see Jeremy has been helping this man out through the addiction program at our church. He has turned out to be such a nice guy and is really getting his life back together. Jeremy has gone to court with this man many times (as the director of RU) to be a voice for this man so he could get his kids. He has really changed since we first met him a year ago. He has sobered up, never misses church and is a big help around the church, has a job, and is now helping others at our addiction program.

 Well back to the question he wanted to ask us.....He said he had prayed a lot about this and talked to the pastor about it and he wanted to know if Jeremy and I would be the ones to take his boys and raise them if anything happens to him. He said our home is the kind of him he would want his kids raised in and he couldn't think of anyone else he would rather have take care of his kids! Of course we aren't expecting anything to happen to him but still it was such an honor to be ask this. He is getting all the legal stuff together so it will be in his will or whatever.

With all the doubts I have about being a good enough mom (mostly put there by others) and all the criticism I have had from others about my children (mostly from people without kids) This really made me happy to think that someone wants ME to raise their kids if anything happened to them.

 I am so proud to say, I am a good mother who is raising her children to love God, church, and others. I might not be perfect but God has made me who I am. I am very honored to have someone else think so too.